I'm Madi. If you're reading this, I love you enough to let you into my whole life, good and bad. Be prepared for some interesting reads.
I’ve never really posted about this, so I think it’s time. I’m genuinely scared for my brother’s life. He’s 19, smart, has a job, just started his first year of college, smokes cigarettes, smokes weed, and apparently takes horse tranquilizers?! We may not get along as well as we used to, but I still love him, and I’m genuinely scared. I don’t know what to do about it either.. because what can I even do? Nothing.
Is it bad to overthink a simple smile? Someone smiling at you means nothing… so why do I have butterflies?
Also, I’m legit in the dictionary under the word awkward. I can’t even initiate conversations with guys because I’m too fucking self conscious. I just casually watch from afar, hopelessly daydreaming about love, but knowing that I won’t find it until I get myself some confidence.
Kinda is a word that I truly despise.
So sluts think they deserve one night stands? I’m curious as to how anyone could feel GOOD about themselves after something like that. Like, I just don’t understand. People will come into school and say, “I sucked so and so’s dick this weekend!!!” Round of fucking applause, you’re disgusting? I don’t understand society. Why would anyone brag about that? I don’t get it, and it pisses me the fuck off.
Little things like this reassure me.
My friend Josh told me last night that I’m “trending” right now.. I didn’t know what that meant, so I asked. He said, “A lot of people think you’re hot right now. I can think of three guys who have told me that like this week.” Then he proceeded to not tell me who the guys are.. so that sucks.
hey i love you
I love you!!!